Archive for September, 2006

MaRI² beLi KuiH!

Thursday, September 28th, 2006

SmaLL, tiNy BiZ GurL

This post is requested by iza, "kurang bahan bacaan…" she said. i haven’t blog for 2 days. reason: 1. busy with my caramel n dadih 2. too tired @ nite time 3. busy chating 4. no idea whut to write actually.

Can’t wait for tonite, "girls day out breaking fast!". but my road tax still not here. how am i going to drive my car. my dad will kill me if i drive to cyber with expired road tax. my bad, just realise yesterday mornin. so gurls pray for me so my road tax will be here by this afternoon. if not you guys have to carry on without me :(

For last two days, i help aunty Salmah my neighbour sell her kuih. i also put my dadih n caramel. so, anyone love to buy my caramel come to my house :) i did this beause i had nothin to do beside waiting for call for interviews which i haven’t received any for last 2weeks. i’m bored to death. it is fun. wait for customer, wait for the kuih to finish. looking foward for each day. aunty have their own loyal customer. so yesterday 80% of the customer is those who came the day before. it was great. last year, my aunty sell "lauk" but she’s moved to bukit beruntung. this year all customer is asking where is she. my usual answer "dia dah pindah bukit beruntung…".

Today i’ll not be selling any kuih instead i just put my stuff and fly to cyber. but if! the uncle send my road tax today… :( "cepaat la uncle, nanti kawan² sy nangis sy x dpt joint diorg". Nana is flying to Korea next month. so not going to see her for few months. Shida will going back to Teluk Intan, only going to see her on hari raya. Nurul have her final exam next week, need to go cyber n make sure she’s doing fine. Suzie can’t make it today, don’t know when will i see her again. Elly always busy i might see her tonite! Ryna always be in cyber, can meet her anytime. Farah also busy workin, meeting her tonite. So i really hope i can be there tonite! MisS them so much! need to see them every month. i can say they are one of my monthly vitamins =)

p/s: happy izaida?

ExPeRiEnCe

Tuesday, September 26th, 2006

MaNusiA MaTi KiNi MaTi mEniNgGaLkN hUtAnG
quote from NuwuL-OmAr. dari sekecil "loan" hingga sebesar² "loan". belom keje hutang dah keliling badan, bukan takat keliling pinggang. from study to car loan and in future house loan. i wish my grandfather will leave me rm100k of his money to me! maybe tersilap tulis wasiat ker… best nyer! huhu! one of my wildest dream! still haven’t  received any call so far today. but why am i not happy? i don’t wish to work until after came back from Sabah. hurmmm. just not satisfied.
yesterday, lepak with my friend @ bazar ramadhan in Ampang. try to sell my food. hik hik hik. even the bazar is not as havoc as other bazar like tmn melati, sri gombak, greenwood. i finish my sardin roll. it was fun. today mama ask me just to sell @ aunty’s gerai. ampang is too far. so today, trying my luck here. i’m doing this just for fun and need to do something with my spare times. i guess, tomorrow "everyday must chat buddies" can hang out here. since i got nothing much to do. if only they want to. please come and cheer me up! just while ago iza leave ym msg, she check her online system she got her deposit from mmu.

….sms Kechik….
"kalo ko check acc ko dah masuk duit deposit bitau aku k!"
….received for sms from KecHik….
"bg no ic"
….reply sms KeChiK….
"841219-71-5112. aku ade 2 acc bcb. both xde duit."
….waiting for reply from KeChiK….
"xde lg"

so sad! "iza memberi harapan palsu". maybe on FBL. i remember shida told me. he saw the finance officer he told that the deposit will received according to faculty :( still need to do something to get money. need to go help mama in the kitchen. later!
p/s: where have my Mr. deViL been.. missing him!

NaWaiTu

Monday, September 25th, 2006

GaNjArAn tArAwih, MariLaH kiTe SaMe² mEngErjAkN nYa
Di
dalam beramal di bulan Ramadan ini dan untuk mengharapkan ganjaran dari
Allah SWT, cukuplah bagi kita dengan hadis yang SAHIH dari Rasulullah
saw berkenaan menghidupkan malam Ramadhan yang bermaksud (terjemahan):
“Sesiapa yang menghidupkan malam Ramadhan dengan penuh keimanan dan
mengharapkan ganjaran dari Allah, maka diampunkan dosa-dosanya yang
lalu”. (Al-Bukhari)

Hadis
mengenai fadhilat sembahyang Tarawih yang disebutkan dalam kitab Durrah
Al- Nashihin bermaksud: “ Daripada Ali Bin Abu Talib Radhiallahu ‘anhu,
bahawa Rasulullah Shallallahu alaihi Wasllam telah ditanya tentang
keutamaan-keutamaan Tarawih di bulan Ramadhan.
 
Baginda bersabda: “ Orang mukmin keluar daripada dosanya pada:
 
 
Malam pertama: Seperti saat dia dilahirkan ibunya
 
 
Malam kedua: Dia diampuni, juga kedua orang tuanya, jika keduanya mukmin.
 
 
Malam ketiga: Malaikat berseru dari bawah ‘Arasy. Mulailah beramal, semoga Allah mengampuni dosamu yang telah lalu.”
 
 
Malam keempat: Dia memperolehi pahala seperti pahala membaca Taurat, Injil, Zabur dan Al-Furqan.
 
 
Malam
kelima: Allah Ta’ala memberinya pahala seperti pahala orang yang
sembahyang di Masjidil Haram, Masjid Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsa.
 
Malam keenam: Allah Ta’ala memberinya pahala orang yang
bertawaf di Makmur dan dipohonkan ampun oleh setiap batu dan cadas (
lapisan tanah yang keras )
 
Malam ketujuh: Seolah-olah dia mencapai darjat Nabi Musa ‘Alaihi salam dan kemenangannya atas Firaun dan Haman
 
 
Malam kelapan: Allah Ta’ala memberinya apa yang pernah Dia berikan kepada Nabi Ibrahim ‘Alaihissalam
 
 
Malam kesembilan: Seolah-olah dia menyembah Allah Ta’ala sebagaimana ibadat Nabi Shallallahu alaihi wasalam
 
 
Malam kesepuluh: Allah Ta’ala mengurniakan kepada nya kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.
 
 
Malam kesebelas: Dia keluar dari dunia seperti saat dia dilahirkan dari perut ibunya.
 
 
Malam kedua belas: Dia datang pada Hari Kiamat sedang wajahnya bagaikan bulan di malam purnama.
 
 
Malam ketiga belas: Dia datang pada Hari Kiamat dalam keadaan aman daripada setiap keburukan
 
 
Malam
keempat belas: Para malaikat datang seraya memberi kesaksian untuknya,
bahawa dia telah melakukan sembahyang Tarawih, maka Allah tidak
menghisabnya pada hari Kiamat.
 
Malam kelima belas: Dia didoakan oleh para malaikat dan para penanggung ‘Arasy dan Kursi
 
 
Malam keenam belas: Allah menetapkan baginya kebebasan untuk selamat dari neraka dan kebebasan masuk ke dalam syurga
 
 
Malam ketujuh belas: Dia diberi pahala seperti pahala para nabi.
 
 
Malam kelapan belas: Malaikat menyeru: “ Wahai Hamba Allah, sesungguhnya allah redha kepadamu dan kepada ibu bapamu.
 
 
”Malam kesembilan belas: Allah mengangkat darjat-darjatnya dalam syurga Firdaus.
 
 
Malam kedua puluh: Allah memberi pahala para syuhada’ dan shalihin.
 
 
Malam kedua puluh satu: Allah membangun untuknya sebuah gedung daripada cahaya
 
 
Malam kedua puluh dua: Dia datang pada hari Kiamat dalam keadaan aman daripada setiap kesedihan dan kesusahan.
 
 
Malam kedua puluh tiga: Allah membangun untuknya sebuah kota dalam syurga
 
 
Malam kedua puluh empat: Dia memperolehi dua puluh empat doa yang dikabulkan
 
 
Malam kedua puluh lima: Allah Ta’ala menghapuskan daripadanya azab kubur
 
 
Malam kedua puluh enam: Allah mengangkat pahalanya selama empat puluh tahun.
 
 
Malam kedua puluh tujuh: Dia dapat melewati Shirath pada Hari Kiamat, bagaikan kilat yang menyambar.
 
 
Malam kedua puluh lapan: Allah mengangkat baginya seribu darjat dalam syurga
 
 
Malam kedua puluh sembilan: Allah memberi pahala seribu haji yang diterima.
 
 
Malam
ketiga puluh: Allah berfirman: “ Hai Hambakan makanlah buah-buahan
syurga, mandilah daripada air Salsabila dan minumlah dari Kauthar.
Akulah Tuhanmu, dan engkau hambaKu.”

JiKa Ada MasA dAn WaKtU hidUpKaN LaH maLaM rAmadHan, sEmoGa dOsA² kitE sEbeLuMnYa aKaN diAmpUn kN. sEmUanYeR bErGaNtUng kEpAdA NiAt dAn kEikhLaSan kitE.

LoOk wHaT yOu’vE dOne

Monday, September 25th, 2006

A LoT LikE LoVe
1st day of puasa. in kg. but we break fast @ home. everyone is at home. it was so nice everyone is at home 1st puasa. fariz came back from south africa on saturday, ijan is back for weekend. we reach home 5:30pm, joint kak nolin to bazar ramadhan sri gombak. it was too pack of people. i won’t go there again. we end up didn’t buy anything. too many people. yesterday i saw "A LoT LikE Love" like to 6th times. hik hik hik. Love it! Strike 1, when i make the first move! hehehe! today is the 2nd day of puasa. a bit tired even i did nothin today, just sit infront my pc, chat with my buddies
arif + iza + nana + nurul. feel bored. no calls. no mood for tV. checking new web Multiply. check out mine http://dyna1912.multiply.com .enjoy this game. it’s also in my friendster. given by Mr. dEviL.

*The Rules* (in case you want to do it too!)

Step 1: Put your winamp/ iPod/MP3 player or iTunes on random.

Step 2: Post the first line(s) from the first 10 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.

Step 3: Post it on your blog and let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.

Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly & post the title in bold after the stricken song.

Step 5: Looking the lyrics up on Google or any other search engine is cheating! Please play nice!

Also, if you know the song - leave your guess in a comment, if you are right, I will post your name (or link if you prefer). Have fun!

*The Songs*

Song 1 i guess this time you realy leavin

Song 2 we got this afternoon you got room for two

Song 3 it’s early in the morning

Song 4 take my photo of the wall

Song 5 i think i’m drowning

Song 6 story in my life

Song 7 derusan ombak menyisir ke pantai = antara air dan jakarta by sheila majid

Song 8 last nite i dreamt of sempedo

Song 9 was it you who spokes the words that…

Song 10 this smile is not the 1st heart brokin…

sLaMaT bErpuAsA

Friday, September 22nd, 2006

"tRuE LoVe dOeS nOt cOmE bY FiNdiNg tHe pErFeCt pErSoN, bUt bY LeArNiNg tO sEe aN iMpErFeCt pErSon pErFeCtLy…"
The
phase taken from my fren saifful. it’s true..there is no one so called
perfecto in this world. learning to see someone in a perfect way can
help you to appriciate the good quality of them. i would like to say
that currently i’m so happy with my life, my frens, my family…but i
wish it will be like this forever! going back to teluk intan this
evening. 1st day of puasa in kampung…

"Here i love to wish each one of you, sLAmAt bErPuaSa! tambah kn amalan di bulan yg mulia..semoga kite mendapat keberkatan dan dimurahkn rezeki mendapat ape yg kite cita² kn"  p/s: iza "puasa" baik² k! i wish i can "puasa’ like your last puasa! baru berkat kan? miahahhaha!
Dsc00018w the 3 gurLs meet again. Hang out with buddies @ nasi ayam tmn melawati. iza’s favorite nasi ayam. mE + iZa + iLaN + AriF + dD. still abg tatir is missing. maybe next time he’ll be there. after diner we went jln² pusing² danau kota uptown’. even tho none of us bought anything. had fun even just for a while hang out with iLan. the last time i meet her was last 3 month i guess. XoXo…remember our buka puasa date ya guys! 1week b4 raya or b4 everyone balik Kampung.
NuRuL: sorry i’m not there for you when you need me yesterday!i hope i can help you :( be patient and pray hard for all the challenges God’s gave us. there must be a reason why she did that. don’t be sad alrite! i wish i’ll be by your side.

HaPpY BuFdAy NaNa

Thursday, September 21st, 2006

fLuFfY hAd 3 CuTe bAbiEs YeStErDaY

DeAr NaNa,
HaPpY BuFdAy tO YoU! i WiSh
i’M iN cYbEr tO mAkE yOU a sLuMbEr PaRtY. nVm 29/9! sMoGa pJg uMo,
mUrAh ReZeKi, CePaT² KaWiN nGn aLaN! KaLo TaK kitE AmIk diA. MiSs yu
GurL! HuGs + KiSsEs! :*

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That is our bufday girl. picture taken on new year party ‘06 @ my house! so anyone for party ‘07? hik hik hik. sedih x dpt celebrate bufday nana on her bufday. between AriF and NaNa’s birthday, is fluffy’s babies bufday. yesterday fluffy acting weird. manja bangat². she wake me up. i can see from her face today is the day! so i prepare her a box n stuff for the baby. i wait from 11am and the 1st baby came out @ 12:35 under my bed went i suddently heard the baby meow. at 1st i tought it’s a dark grey, few minutes later can see clearly it has the same color with it’s mother and also the 2nd baby @ 1:51 infront of the tv at my mom’s room. fluffy is panic n try to find another place to give birth. i pick up the baby n put it under the bed with the 1st one. i tought that was all..when i have a look @ 3:15 there was another one but this time the baby is smaller n weaker maybe because its the last one and the color is really dark grey. all babies in this house is either yellowish + gold like fluffy or orange + white like morthy or fully orange like cookie. so the last baby is special because it’s dark grey! everyone is excited, my dad straighly came upstairs after works and also mira after she came back from school. isya decided to sell all the 3 babies which can cover the cost for my cat for about a year. mira want to keep the grey one. and i haven’t decided anything. even though i’m the one who take care of fluffy when she gave birth to all her babies. we’ll see. hope all the 3 babies will survive for the next month. i’m so happy fluffy is doing fine. but she want me to be by her side all the time to take care of her babies. so manja!
while cleaning up the house, received sms from iza!
"oh ya dina. i ada cta klaka nk cta. smalam i ngn izuan g kdai gambar. sementara mnunggu i tgk la pic yg dgantung.ttbe i nmpk ade robe mmu.bla i tgkgambar dia. MUAHAHA i laugh like hell in there.it was my dear fren. glemer sungguh lu."

i reply her sms,
"gilo mu! saper kwn u tu?"

actually i didn’t realize the word "lu" at the end! OmG! mati² ingat org lain. yes the shop hang up my picture n my family before i pick it up last time. i’m shock! NvM people need glamourous sometimes. even though the picture of me was so terrible. i’m damn chubby wearing white scarf. that’s why i love to wear black scarf all the time. :p

This phase is taken partly from my dear friend elly comment…"maybe dyna rasa life dyna bored and xder hala tuju.tp dyna xsedar,ada
org yg jeles sgt wif ur life.u have time to enjoy ur life to de fullest
before u start ur miserable life(working life)…..dis is my advice.stop complaining about ur life.u have everiting
already.enjoy ur life now.when de time come(working life),u’ll miss ur
life now…."

it make me THINK. human, everyone including myself never satisfied with what we had. that’s why God have create satisfaction. if there is no need of satisfaction needs in lives, people will stay still and accept what they have n never work harder to satisfied themselves. even a billionaire in this world is working hard to think hard how to make themselves richer. so as dina, i’m thankfull to be what i am but i will never had enogh. i want to be somebody. just a simple somebody with a great job and great life and great family and also great friends like you!

HaPpY bUfDaY dEaR!

Wednesday, September 20th, 2006

1/3 oF OuR BiRtHdAy (",) (pOsT nO 101)
Today is my dearest friend AriF bufday! happy bufday to you! :* listen to happy bufday song by OaG! i love that version. @ 2pm AriF came to my house before he did iza reach here 1st. me n iza hv plan earlier not to wish him earlier. so sad i’m not the 1st to wish him. nway, the reason they are here, Arif help to repair my pc. got virus n my cd reader is not working. nearly 3 hours, we chat we laugh we discuss about AriF "FuN" nite…till my pc is done. but then me n iza still haven’t wish him. so we ajak arif for picnic. at 1st i plan to go for picnic in titiwangsa n arif is thinking of ulu yam. hurmm but we end up @ KfC near nZ. selepas berjaya menculik dd kat umah dia. so it’s actually sort of kinda suprise for our bufday boy. but x suprise sgt dia. but nway, we had fun gather chit chat eat cake. hope Arif had fun even tho it’s not as fun as ur suprise party that mornin =)
Last time during iza’s bufday we went n watch Puteri Gunung Ledang together. 3 couples. mE + AriF + iZa. she spend 1/3 of her birthday with mE and AriF. today arif hang out at my place till evening, we hv our late lunch n small celebration of his bufday, he also end up spend 1/3 of his birthday with us. so to make it fair n everyone happy i will hv to spend 1/3 of my birthday this year with them! hik hik hik! how am i going to? we’ll see! :p still hv time to plan. so not a suprise guys! but nway i’m glad we did celebrates AriF bufday today. this friday is someone’s bufday which she’s waiting for it for so long. haih! i wish i’ll be there so give u a suprise dear! i heard she’s sick today because she had no enuff sleep, watching 3movie in a row…miahahah! just kidding! hope u’ll get well soon so then u can celebrate your bufday with ur love one. the very special one before Ramadhan! :) as my fren iza said. puasa dating pon kene puasa. but did u believe that? i don’t think so dear! hik hik hik. remember our plans! one day buka puase together n we’ll go every bazar in KL. but not on 29th i’m book for the day =) hik hik hik. few days more to go before puasa! eat all as u can in day time. no more lunch :p
p/s: i’m officially welcoming AnGeLa one of my blog reader for quite sometimes which we just chat tonight. she’s FaRiZ friend. =)

SuNdaY SpEgEtTi

Monday, September 18th, 2006

few days dah x blogging. nothin much i did this week. but whut i did, every midnight lepak kat balcony kak nolin. abg mie xde. so suka hati lepak panjat balcony tiap² mlm. mama bising gaks. hik hik hik. anak dara panjat bumbug mlm². saturday, lunch with marissa, mira, kak nolin n kids @ bsc. iza ajak main futsal. so sorry iza, kesian u kene buli. plan for lunch with them since monday. NvM. next time yer babe! ;) not bad lunch kat MoNtE 1st floor BsC. lunch set rM18++ full set appertizer + steak/salmon + ice-cream choc/vanilla/strawberry + coffee/tea. the portion is just nice to make u full =) nanti dina bawak korg. tapi best lunch time je. we ask if puasa best tak, mamat oreo tu leh boleh ckp x best. hahhahah! so anyone lunch date with me before puasa? evening pegi date to OU dinner with him. nk tgk movie xde yg best. Sunday, ade kenduri @ my cousin’s house in Kajang. the nite before babah ask to book for movies in Mines. mimpi ape tah dia nk tgk movie. little man tu tgk preview pon tau x best. plan lepas kenduri kite g watch movie. i booked for 3:20pm Little Man. tapi x sempat amik ticket booking pon. instead we just bought the tix on da spot just before the movie started. we are just on time. biasa, miss dina yg drive. ;) jahanam baby froggy kene lanyak. the movie

LiTtLe MaN :- A man anxious to be a father mistakes an extremely short-statured, baby-faced criminal on the run as his newly adopted son.

It is quite bored. dina main sms with amad lagi. the actors is the one who played in white chicks. comedy movie. no need to go n watch. i wanna watch umma turman in My super ex-girlfriend but it’s 18PL mira x leh tgk. so layan kn aje. reach home @ 6:30pm rehat2 kejap then cook spegetti for dinner. ijan nk balik college. ajak pegi kenduri x nk ikut. dia x mkn lunch pon. everyone said my spegetti is good. amad can come all the way from bangi for my spegetti. mihahah! is that all i know how to cook. next time i learn how to cook gulai. na’ah! i’m not going to get married tomorrow. next year je lah blajar masak :p

HaNg-oUt

Wednesday, September 13th, 2006

3-sEkAwAn..SuMmOrE MiSsiNg :(

Maybe i always get use to be away from family n use to spend more time with friends during my studies, i sometimes need space to breath n away from all the tense n be with my friends. =) Dina pegi yesterday. missing my buddies. but i ionly manage to hang out with NuRuL + ShiDa. kitorg jln² sampai nk dekat dinner time. best bangat! shida, awak jgn balik teluk Intan. lepak je cni. nanti kite leh lepak cj lagi. thanks to NuRuL sanggup melayan dina. menyibuk² n meramaikn lagi penghuni bilik diorg. smlm kitorg lunch kat McD n dinner kat "buruk" tapi dah lawa skit. amad blanja ;) nana last min bgtau dia dah plan lain. call² x angkat. elly plak x dtg tgk kite.kite tido je kat bilik NuruL tapi awk x dtg pon :( suhairi mengade! tiap² ari dpt elly pon nk tamak! bagi la org share! elly bukan dia punye sorg! miss you gal! kecik ati ngn awk :p sian NuruL smlm. dia tunggu je awak. next time no no promises. ptg kami berjalan di taman. and this one of the picture! i LikE! hik hik hik! kami seperti kanak² retarded. anyone dare to take picture in a park like we did! huhu! best bangat! NuruL menari tarian india pKai Sari + ShiDa menari melayu ulek mayang + i wonder whut am i trying to do??? hahaha!

Dsc00041release all the tense. main buaian. gelongsor. jongkang-jongkit. huhu! did i spell it right? wutever! lepak cj pon nk menceria kn NuruL. Sian dia. nnt shida balik tinggal dia. NvM gal. study hard for final k! jgn sedih². end of this month we lepak summore! genting we go go! alrite? your final is just few week comin. study well. x sempat kite nk breakfast sama. tu laa. melayan shida tgk "ku tLah JatUh CinTa"..gina laughing so hard, remind me of sumone! hehehe! @Nite mesti lah date ngn dia. kang ade yg merajuk dah dtg cj x jumpa dia. like we always do, 10min @ the bridge takin pictures ;) nk pegi tgk movie x de movie best rite now. summore when we reach summit the cinema is closed. maybe no midnight on weekdays i guess.

p/s: NaNa, ingat promise awk tau! make sure awk prepare for presentation awak awal2 b4 we go rongeng². NuRuL pon sama! u better start study. if not we cancel our plan! huhu! Shida awak make sure ade kat cni n oThers tOo!

SoaLaN @ SinDiRaN

Monday, September 11th, 2006

TaK bOriNg kE TaK bUaT ApE²??? 

Question ask by BaBaH, maser tgh lepak tgk drama series "kAwAn" @ tV3. babah pon layan jer tgk. dina rase babah tanye tu whut he really mean is (biler laa nk keje anak aku yg sorg nih???) hik hik hik…BaBah, anak babah ni bukan x nk keje. cuma mls je. mcm best plak jadi princess kat umah nih. everyday layan babies je kat umah. tgk tv. mkn. otak pon x pakai. sedikit mase lagi otak nih x berfungsi n i can be crazy soon. so what am i going to do about it? tell me! tell me people! i’m printing my resume but i don’t know what to do with it. miahahah! i guess i want to give it to BaBah. who knows he can gimme a job. :) so not cool workin with your own dad! surely kne marah all the time. no no no! cannot be!

Answer to BaBah question :) sgt borink! babah nk bg dina keje? hehehe! dina nk g carik keje la nih…sabar yer. speaking of babah, someone who can be trust told me, i’m BaBah’s favorite daughter =) bangga nyer! perasan plakS! hik hik hik! is it true? hurmmm.. i wonder! alaaa. i know marissa is mama’s favorite ;) gurls mmg close ngn father, boys always close to mother. just like our Mr. Arif :p ijan is my mom’s favorite. he’ll get everything he ask for accept for skuter that he’s dying for. motorbike is dangerous! tapi best. berangin! hihiihihi! i always dream of riding a big bikes mcm kat Sepang :) sure best jadi awek bikers, but not remp-it-s laaa :p

Another 52days i’m flying to Sabah for my cousins weeding. there will be 2 day i’ll spend climbing Mount Kinabalu. but am i ready? i guess no! OmG 52 days left to train for KK. i wish to have fun there not suffering. one of the reson why i delay to get a job. i most probably wont be able to ask for leave for 1week for vacation if i just start working for 1 month. hurmm. is that a good reason not to look for a job? i don’t know, or maybe i’m giving excuse to myself because i’m afraid to proceed with the next stage of mylife? but i can’t forever be like this. everyone will be mad at me and i’ll be crazy before the times come. need to start a new life!